The Leftover Pieces; Suicide Loss Conversations

The Leftover Pieces; Suicide Loss Conversations

Hosted by: Melissa Bottorff-Arey

Life after suicide loss is nothing short of a wasteland of the leftover pieces of your shattered heart, of your former self. Join host Melissa, a mother who lost her 21-year old son Alex to suicide in 2016, as she has...

Episodes

Intro Episode - Meet The Host

Season #1 Episode #1

This is my "START HERE" episode if you are new or need to know where this podcast came to be, who I am and exactly what my plan for the show is. I am so sorry that has caused you to find me, but so very glad that you...
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Finding Support; Founding a Group

Season #1 Episode #2

My conversation with Bonnie Swade founder of SASS-MoKan, a suicide awareness survivor support group in the Kansas City area is packed full of information on the role of a support group, a support system, in a grievers...
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FEAR; It's Here, What Now?

Season #1 Episode #3

In this (first) Mini Solo "Down the Rabbit Hole" (DTRH) Episode I delve into the topic of Fear & Grief. I talk about how they overlap & interact as well as how I have (started) to deal with it in my (new) life...
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A Brother Lost; An Unbreakable Bond

Season #1 Episode #4

This is a conversation is with Parker. We talk about losing his 21 year old brother to suicide at the age of 19 when he was just starting college, just starting his 'adult' life - a life he expected would always...
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The F***ing Holidays; Ho Ho NO

Season #1 Episode #5

In this (second)) Mini Solo "Down the Rabbit Hole" (DTRH) Episode I delve into the topic of "THE HOLIDAYS".... I talk about how they were, and how they are now and how I have (started) to deal with it in my (new) life...
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Above The Rug; A Suicide Widow's Tale

Season #1 Episode #6

In this conversation, I talk to Lindsey Doolittle, a suicide (police sergeant's) widow, a loss survivor, but also an advocate and an activist, an artist and an author. We discuss how her husband's police department...
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The First Year; Survival & Beyond

Season #1 Episode #7

The mini "Down the Rabbit Hole " Episode touches on the 'shoulds' & (possibly) 'shouldn'ts' of the first year(-ish) while you are in survival mode. I offer my own perspective & my advice based on my life,...
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Shelby Forsythia; Your Grief, Your Way

Season #1 Episode #8

In this wonderful conversation with Shelby Forsythia we discuss her new book "Your Grief, Your Way" which is a 366 day (non-religious) daily devotional that I personally think should be in the hands of every griever....
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Chasing Joy; Can We Find It?

Season #1 Episode #9

In this mini "Down the Rabbit Hole " Episode I discuss an often natural feeling in grief - one in which joy eluded me & how I got back to feeling a balance ... & feeling deserving of joy once again.  I offer...
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Trauma to Bipolar; When Suicide Becomes an Option

Season #1 Episode #10

Today I have a powerful conversation with Jennifer. You will hear her tell her story of the trauma- addiction- mental health-roller coaster that she was on for nearly 27 years before hitting bottom & starting to...
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Grief Tools; What are Mine?

Season #1 Episode #11

In this mini "Down the Rabbit Hole " Episode I discuss the many tools that I have placed in my "grief toolkit" and others that I am exploring. This is NOT to be taken as definitive OR construed as medical advice.  I...
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Forever 15; A Lasting Tribute to Rader

Season #1 Episode #12

Today I want to share my conversation with Susan Ward. Susan lost her son Rader on June 7, 2017 to suicide just one week shy of his 16th birthday on June 13. Rader was a creative, intuitive & intelligent child who...
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